God put this on my heart today, so I wanted to share…
Anyone who knows me knows how hard I try to be my authentic self. It has taken me a long time to like myself. I say “like” not love but it’s a far cry from my self loathing that used to be. Everyone is battling something that they don’t share. We all have chapters in our stories that we don’t share and that’s okay. God has brought me through a lot of hard times in my life which has taught me a lot. I’m stronger than I ever thought I was, it doesn’t matter how others perceive me, as long as I have a circle of people who love me, I’m as rich as I’ll ever need to be, and probably should have been listed first because it really is the most important-I’m a child of the One True King, which means everything to me.
I’m not writing this because I want attention. I’m not writing this to get “likes”. I’m writing this because God put it on my heart.
If you’re struggling with depression, seek help. Going to the doctor for help honestly saved my life. If I’d known when I was in my 20’s that one little pill/day could make such a difference, I would have done it then. When I was younger, just getting out of bed was hard. For so long I felt like I was in a deep dark hole that I’d never be able to escape. I nitpicked everyone about everything because I wasn’t happy. I couldn’t see how blessed I was. I.HATED.MYSELF.
I wouldn’t seek help for so long because of the stigma surrounding depression and the fear of being labeled as crazy. IT IS A CHEMICAL IMBALANCE. I wake up in the mornings not feeling like I’m in a pit. I can see all of the blessings in my life. Do I still have days where I feel sad? Sure, but I no longer feel worthless and unloveable.
I’ve been on this medicine for quite awhile, so I’m not sure why this was put on my heart today. But, if this is something you needed today, then I’m really glad I was obedient in what He put on my heart.
God loves you and so do I ❤️
~Melissa